Malicious spectre of inverted hate.
Whispering sweet nothings between demands for my death
Contorting my vision with fear, rage and hatred
Tearing away at the fibres of conscious self
My quasi-monster, a chimeric abomination
A filthy homunculus with a cardiac void
Doomed to meander in search of the same kind
Of mutual deformity in schizophrenic waltz
Where have you been? What have you done?
Every second you close your eyes, I become
An entire existence as prey for a parasite
As the pistols and daggers around you scream
Tonight’s the night, tonight's the night
Lamentation in silent oblivion
Suffocating the life from lungs
A heart of stone crushed to dust by frozen hands
But what's one more death in the thousand on this day?
Retracing your steps as my marionette through the stages we've danced on with glee
In search for the evidence of morbid malevolence in memories written by me
I laugh at the tragedy of mutual insanity in our sick manifest
The blind shuffle of a wandering unconscious mind
Blood and bones and flesh is all of me that's left behind
A walking effigy, in this eternal purgatory
A hollow shell of my old self, don’t look at me.
I am a ghost.
Don't you see what I've done? Don't you see what you've become?
A man beaten down by a life he did not want
A man betrayed by that he has lost
I did this for you, I did this for you
I'm not the monster you see, but a fragment of what should be
My whispered words, ignored for too long
That which has killed me leaves me alive
And writhing without hope
What doesn't kill me makes me beg for a rope
A howling scream at what I have done
A desperate gasp at what we've become
An acquiesced embrace of that I know
This husk of man, embodied by evil
Burning my weakness to ashes so I can see
This ghoul of deception has opened my eyes
I surrender and embrace what you have done for me
So supple her skin, so cold to the touch, its freezing
Her smile sliced so deep and stitched with such care
That dress we picked out, it suits her so well, its perfect
With splatters of red we forget you are dead as we dance through the night.
She deserved this I know that is perfectly clear
Our family complete now that you are here
Born on this day of death her screams they sound sublime
Deformed my love turns to ash, reborn as hates design
Cowering, decaying truth buried far within
Nestled away humanity clings to life along with sin.
