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colourmonger me – I survived

for all the years of my silence

hiding from her in places in my mind

where she can't go

where she can't find me

old spongy doom

curves are gentle friends – they are kind

they've kept me safe until that time

I forgot to lock the door in my mind

and she came creeping in behind me

old spongy doom

spectres!

twisted like bungee fumes

feigned, treacherous care

spectres!

twisted like bungee fumes

dead ends everywhere

piercing flash of lightning

discloses truths I can't bear to know

much too frightening

(meek breath, body rising

hundreds of halos crown

the emerging surroundings)

straining to defy

I'm spending a whole life

taking apart the wreck of those

spectres!

twisted like bungee fumes

feigned, treacherous care

spectres!

twisted like bungee fumes

dead ends everywhere

colourmonger me – now I'm fine

but just for fun

I'm planning my celebration

on the day when she dies

get drunk on bacon and mince pies

all the world abloom