So I have done the worst of it all Done in the name of the superior being Far beyond my own value judgement I did how I was told, only to live through But remorse corrode me now Predominance of regret, condemn myself Must I take upon all responsibility for their lives? Or am I only a victim of an unhealthy world outlook? I ordered myself to be blind To betray my blood and mankind Conquered by the power of fear I didn't cry even one tear Please consider what I have done Don't term me an assassin, keep back your scorn My mind is scarred immutable, full of anguish Bitter knowledge about myself, looking for a hand So dubious I seem, yet I'm no cruel executioner Drowned by depression, I try to get over that So dubious... My bungled destiny I hand over to you And if you're competent to judge, offer your decision I ordered... So dubious... Not even one tear...