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There are some things words just can't explain

Like the sight of a smile

The feeling when a close friend is gone

A void that can't be filled

I've opened up, I've let others in

Pushing myself into blind hands

Gazing in eyes of hope I gave my heart

Wondering if she had known...

All the countless nights with thoughts of her

Feeling I would surely die

Killing me inside without raising a hand

Recognize the smile?

All the things I did were for you

What makes me pull through

Is not giving you the satisfaction

Satisfaction of seeing me on the ground

Watching at night dark endless skies

Shedding these suppresed tears

Remembering of her once gentle touch

A touch turned into stone

I walk at night with that picture in mind

The face of heaven

The future that could have been

Wondering if she had known...

All the countless nights with thoughts of her

Feeling I would surely die

Having to lie to myself again

Just so I could see you smile

All the things I did were for you

What makes me pull through

Is not giving you the satisfaction

Satisfaction of seeing me on the ground

Yearning for love, trust and compassion

I let myself fall

Reaching for understanding

I broke to my knees

You've fed me false hopes

Believing we would last

Changing who you were to taint our love with lies

Was I just a pawn

Something to be forgotten

You will kiss the groung

Begging for one last chance

Does the fact that you've broken me satisfy you?

Now it's my turn to break and destroy

Yearning for love, trust and compassion

I let myself fall

Reaching for understanding

I broke to my knees

The embrace you hoped to find was left behind

Along with the thoughts

That you helped turn to ash

I now know I loved what she could be,

Not what she was

Then again some things these words will never say