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pushing back for a while now

but the pressure won't ease

until it all falls apart again

it feels like dying inside

i'm ashamed of myself

of the life that i live

of the world that is suffocating

why do i even live? i never wanted to

enough

i'm down

why do i even live? i never wanted to live in this world

this world

so bad

i'm blinded by the light of faith

but the darkness will come

the dark falls

leaving this world

through the black gate

for the better