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I'm not clean, I'm not a saint

But I changed the course for us

I steered straight, but you derailed

And I fell a long way with your hollow words

I thought I'd be a bigger person

But I can't fight this bitterness

How come you have it all while

I'm fighting for my life?

You were like oil in water

Escape artist at best

No matter how hard I tried

It was always easier for you to slip away

No risk no reward is what they say

But I'd take them back any day

Those years you stole from me

Spent on the one way street

I want you to become of something

That's lost all its power on me

Like a passing bird on a distant sky

There you carry our years together

To an airy grave of oblivion

The wind is calling you, volucrine

I want to remember you from all those sleepless nights we stayed up talking,

but all I see when I look at you is a scar of a broken trust

I will never forgive you

This pain of mine is just too real

I have earned my wings, now watch me go

I will never forget this

I'll soar above you like a dying crow

Scaling the shattered roof of the sky

I hope that years from now

I can see this in a different light

That the loss you set me in

Could give me something better in return

I want to be a bigger person

But all I see is emptiness

How the hell do you build a life

Out of a looping state of grief?