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Twenty years ago the seed of what was to grow was planted.

When I was a child

My world was so small

A satellite of love

Naive it revolved



Life was fun and games

I always played by the rules

But was it ever in my hands

After so much to go through

    When did I lose my way?

    When did life fade away?

        The price we pay to learn: innocence

        Rust, decay, loss, we fade away

Slowly it all did change

My folks grew estranged

No one told me why

Things could never be the same

No more fun or games

Rules are for the insane

it was never in my hands

After fate was through

    When did I lose my way?

    When did life fade away?

    I never lost my way

    I was always drifting away

        The price we pay to learn: innocence

        Rust, decay, loss, we fade away



           Here I've tried to change what I am I've tried to become not like you Dad

I've tried to walk away from the path you did. The path you took! was it worth it?

Weather beaten and exposed on the ledge so formidable  a rock you were,

yet something happened  ... a tiny little fissure  and water burst forth in a steady trickle

In child the seeds of hatred

Like the man; mirror image.

In child the seeds of despair

Like the man; living life in rage.

When I turn back these pages of my life

I see parallels with my old man

Now I realize he's what I've become

Now I realize just what I've become