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Impossibility overwhelming me

But I'm done trying to figure it out existence

There is no meaning, purpose, destination

Only the burden of the here and now

Another made up escape

To cope with all of this

All we can have is distractions

From inevitability

I am the meaningless trapped in an absurd world

I am the existentialist

The big picture I see and the causality of it all

I'm terrified to think there isn't more than this

Another day another pointless race

All so caught up in their catch 22

So lost and drowned in hopeless routine

Condemned by time and oblivion

I struggle everyday

To escape the apathy

Fleeting joy, then hell again

The abyss smiles at me

I am the meaningless trapped in an absurd world

I am the existentialist

I am the troubled one

Trapped in the prison of the self

I sometimes crave the end to set me free

I treasure so much the here and now

But then it too soon becomes the past

Existence is the wax of the candle

And time the flame that melts it away

I am the anxious one

The over thinker I can't escape

I am the existentialist

I'm terrified to realize there isn't more than this

So I often crave the end to set me free