This is reality, how you accept it... and what you´ve made of it! Down the mental vortex I drift... in spirals I´m drifting up! The hell that you`ve created... and what it made of you! Without flesh there's no touchable reality bodyless... In the void... there's nothing real! Everything falls back on itself... time always moves forward... never backwards Neither it will stand still... my spirit is endless... my soul is timeless! Everyday this body of mine gets older... never younger... there's no way back to what's gone... it's gone forever... and the future disappears while I try to reach it! In the darkest and longest night of the fatal saturn-year... I walk through the ancient forest of my childhood... these monuments of wood, so much older than my tired flesh... are whispering my secret name with the tongue... the tongue of my everlasting soul! I raise my eyes to the sky and watch the hypnotising moon... as it drowns in a sea of clouds... the guardian of my sorrow... witness of my pain! As the unyielding winterwind cuts my weak flesh without a blade... I sit down and listen to the tender voice of the nature... Here is my home... without a castle... Here are my roots... my ancient source... The sanctuary for my tortured mind.. To find peace... and a final place to rest! I was searching for somekind of a god since I can remember... since the first light has blinded my eyes... in all those years of my quest... at all those strange and unknown places where I have sought... in the darkest depth... and behind the highest light... it was always myself I have found... alone with me ... I've felt eternity! Darkness always heals the wounds of the victims of light... all angels, lost their beauty... all heavens have turned to hell! Red clouds of poison drifting over a black sky... above a danse macabre in a paradise that lies decay! Darkness always brings the mercyful sleep... which delivers the mindless slaves of life... from their languishing state... all living must die... all thinking will resignate... in a soceity which consumes itself in monotony! In me it's everdark... darker as life could ever be... dead or alive... my thoughts will move on... until there's nothing left to think!!!