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Ripping from me is this haunting,

admission so daunting.

A complete jealousy,

of the recently dead.

The deepest of all,

admirations so foul.

Of who'd choose to aim bullets,

for the hinds of their heads.

Have you ever tasted it,

metallic barrel placed in it?

Do you possess the gall to pain,

all those in life you've touched?

Failure, I renounce our tenure,

this venture has drained me.

I ask thee, grant self murder's bliss.

My conscience has begged me,

to end this horrendousness.

Wrap rope so tightly,

around my neck and twist.

Suicide be my guide!

The only thing  I will,

get right in this life.

My appeal shall not be denied!

My place now secured,

my home the other side.

I never belonged here,

I never did ask!

If I could join,

this world collapsed.

A Hell hath awakened,

and now I choose sleep.

So let this razor,

get the better of me.

Suicide be my light!

The only wrong I stand,

to right in this life.

To the ear of the reaper confide!

His blade offers mercy,

may it tear me wide.

I never belonged here,

I never did ask!

If I could join,

this world collapsed.

A Hell hath awakened,

and now I choose sleep.

So let this gesture,

do the talking for me.

Dear mother and father,

now look what you've made.

More eager fodder,

for the depth of a grave.

For the sweet gift of life,

you've both bestowed upon me.

You'll wish that you'd felt inclined,

to keep the fucking receipt.