to leave no trace nor take any space to fade unwitnessed leave all that's unattained leave it behind leave us all behind how can we erase amend what we create with clumsy strokes in breathless fits of rage leave it behind leave it all behind through cracks we see the light amazed we shield our eyes emerge to count the marks of those we leave behind this stolid rain in wintry shades of grey a sudden storm came like an onslaught nothing could allay I sat amazed with nothing left to say numbed by the violence of your longing dark and unassuaged and I wish I knew then but no one ever does I wish you knew they were there for you always there for you