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is it always our faults that show through?

what a pity i thought i'd always knew

until this moment, i've been denying

all that is true

this is not healthy...

how i live now i'm so fucking sick

my head starts to spin i don't care for myself

i don't care for anything more

i'm tired of waiting

i can't think and dream



my time is limited and that's how it is

the seconds tic by but now i see how i've been living a lie

perhaps more painful is what's to come

when we realize it's nothing at all

already halfway dead



yes change has happened is it really so strange?

what was expected? i hate those controling ways

so what can I do now? give up and stop trying

that's what i want

the end is to come for me

i've waited already oh so long

when will life take pity on me?

when - will - i - be - gone?



my blood fills the tub

my veins feel so empty

why have i done this?

can someone recall?

maybe this life wasn't mine after all