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This light I have lost;

Will it ever return?

Struggle through quicksand

In the blink of an eye

Everyday

Just shades of gray

Endless ceaseless

Dull and numb

Enraged in a flash

Frigid and frozen

Before blistering sear

A mask worn and clung to

Like addiction

Devoid of hope

Filled with resentment

Contempt for myself

Dance of martyrdom

Self loathing so strong

Bound to drown

Forever sink down

In endless abyss

Feeling death’s kiss

Moment’s relent

Is this the end?

They say time heals all

A wicked trick

Before you fall?

A mask worn and clung to

Like addiction

Devoid of hope

Filled with resentment

Disassociate from misery

Perpetual fucking suffering

Why should they feel joy While I suffer?

Disassociate from misery everything