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What an appalling desire

My heart beats so fast

Another unsettling ritual which refuses to pass

A nagging numbing need

I must feel something

Go and make myself feel

Get it out, act now

I must wait for the great release

No one must notice

I can’t stop the impulse once the fuse is lit

I tremble with sickly delight

Hence the morbid allure after every slit

I'm almost done carving my skin

The pain seems gone, but it won't be for long

Dancing, prancing, gallivanting

Underneath the sweetness of a dark moon

Such a delectable array of freedom

Yet it ends so soon

Finger tips covered in red

The blood flows so fast

Dark red stains the dead

Dark red falls instead

As the sun rises it ruins my freedom

Tomorrow's day drags me back

I await bleeding

As the moonlight falls it ruins my holiday

Tomorrow's day I lay lifeless, repeat

I must wait for the great release

No one must notice

Chaotic energy

Demonic clergy

Sweet sun falls

While spirits rise

I lose myself

I await bleeding

I lay lifeless

My heart beats so fast

I must feel something

I must wait for the great release

Death lives inside of myself