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Yet to find a reason, the burdens a daily occurrence

the thought of a world without myself would bring eternal happiness

all doors firmly locked, no one can ever know

the fakest of smiles has returned, in reality its all for show

all live valued equally but myself the one exception

and I'm yet to meet a more pathetic soul in my miserable existence

dismissed as vanity is my struggle for self acceptance

still without a reason I'll repent for my innocence

to better myself in my own eyes, seems unachievable

after countless attempts but still I fucking fail

Sympathy for the dead a gratitude I don't deserve

I'll continue down this path, granted suffering in return

No solutions to improve, I'm nothing more than shit

if agony is my redemption... so fucking be it