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Loqui ad Deum

I was lost, searching like a lamb for hope

in a world where nothing ever made no sense tried to reach the one and only Jehovah

Praying day and night for a recall from the father like a gift from up on high

within my mind I heard him speaking

sounding loud and clear, like a voice into my ear I’m the one, chosen son, gifted and reborn

oh maker keep talking

all the wisdom channeled to me never will I beg of it to end

Speak to God, treading in uncharted realms

it would not stop, but was there a connection to the lord?

The more I learned, the more I felt uneasy I felt distorted without no light

the bringer of all answers would not stop babbling for weeks it kept on spewing, this can’t be right

This strain of insanity, whispering not a moment of a quiet patch

as my world contracted different ills what was this fucking curse

Scratching in the walls, I was not alone something was involved, not heaven

I felt paralyzed and robbed of all my movement voiceless and impaired, torture kept on growing

something spoke to me and now I knew it was not God Praying day and night for a recall from the father

like a gift from up on high

within my mind I heard him speaking

sounding loud and clear, like a voice into my ear I’m the one, chosen son, gifted and reborn

oh maker keep talking

all the wisdom channeled to me never will I beg of it to end

Speak to God, terror on the receiving end unwilful bond, this hostage situation must end Years has flown since I sought answers

now I’m caged under surveillance force-fed pills, still all I hear is

voice of God, it never leaves me