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My will is weakened by the mistakes I have done

I feel have befouled all who predeceases me

Worst take responsibility for my life

I just pin the blame on you, for my self indulgent life

No one is more ashamed of me than myself

My guilt makes me wretch

I hate and sympathize with myself

I fear that no one knows my reality

Destruction of my world would mean nothing to yours

Except the convenience of not existing

Unable to inflict pain

Inflict pain on our lives

My fits of rage uncontrollable

Every-time you speak the truth makes me want to shut your mouth

Like screaming in my ear, I don't want to hear the truth

Ashamed

Humiliation

Intoxication is the only way to rid me of this pain

The diary never written of my un-explanatory problems

Perverse inflictions on humans I don't know

Mental scarring on the ones whom I should care

All of this just makes me fear

Just etchings of the one insane

This life which I create

This life which I destroy

The darkest torment

Splinters of truth from my altered self

As I revel in this life in which I create,

And equally destroy

Life is unwanted

Life is unneeded

I want my time to come

I want my time to come

Still giving in this lifeless shell

My sub existence is all I have

I want my time to come

I claw as hard as I can,

From the sight of reality

Strikes fear like nothing else

My subsistence is all I have

Save me from existing with no cause

Under the shadow of night I'll be gone

My voice will echo for eternity

In the stone walls of life

Eternity floating in nothingness is the purpose of life

Eternity seeking out something, just a fraction of life

No after life, this one is enough

No after life, this one's too much

This one's too much, no after life