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heart racing, awake before sun

lying in wait I can't handle

eyes stutter through the dark

internal systems dismantled.

counting the cracks in the floor

from one tile to another

careful system of back and forth

one foot after the other.

I am always staring at the door

scared

unable to reach the knob

it screams for air.

unprepared to leave

time surmounts

waiting to snuff out the candle

it flickers out.

through the brightest black

steady stream of unconscious thought

rapid movements cease

unprovoked pain becomes lost.

wind fills lungs in open air

the sky seems clear today

uninterested in what's below

or natural decay.

walking through the arch

shooting at the breeze

gentle bedside manner

to put my mind at ease.

no desire to part

from a soul of shape

eternity in heart

through time and space.