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I sought a new existence, somewhere inside

To rid myself of ego and grow

A ritual of candle wax; foolishness

And little tabs of paper with colorful illustrations

The echoes of tracers have built to form tsunamis

Crashing against the world leaving tiny fissures

Secrets of the world spill out to form a new heterodoxy

Encased, the brain swells becoming an inadequate transistor

Wisdom from outer limits of the universe ephemeral

I saw not the form I seek but something just out of my reach

My obsession grows wishing to escape all things temporal

My body the conduit for things in the ether I could leach

Ingesting a cocktail of haphazard drugs

Inducing terrible and forbidden dreams

Into darker realms my mind succumbs

Staring into vortexes, unending screams

Bodiless flights passing haunting nightmares

Crawling the nearby abyss

Horrific parasites

Skulking foreign worlds

Hidden in mists

With every foray a gleam of sublime wisdom

Shifting forms artisans could never sculpt

I wish to hold this reality in my hands

Attempts to understand only turn into unmalleable commands

The arrogance of man to try and conquer distant savage lands

Now I fear something has cracked open my skull

Slipped inside my head

A strange inhabitant, it sings to me

It's found its way to my legs

Strange geometric shapes

I now start to fear I'm now beyond

What I set out to reach

Sped past like a bullet seeking its end

I vomit cerebrospinal fluid

Like burning paper I curl and bend

I fumble forward, completely dissolved

Searching for objects with which I can reform

Clay, flesh, dirt and any filth I can find

Is this what I sought? everything left behind?

I am ejected from my body

Falling back into the horror

Clutching hands with my former temple

But the stranger has already taken over

A wooden grin breaks across his face

Peeling my fingers off one by one

Thanking me for this long deserved space

He waves me goodbye into the void I succumb