why am i here again still drowning in lies hysteria glistening in vicious eyes unbeknown, yet again familiar place lost my way home long ago still trying to retrace howling dervish deep within relentlessly craving for sin wearing bleak nightmares so proud spinning around and laughing out loud is the lord of demise still alive? will your hatred within arise? does your inner self still strive for life? i have seen the other side in my dark subconscious mind