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Even pollen wont leave me at peace

But i overcome the discomfort and still smell the flowers

I am my own God and this life is both heaven and hell

For now i am walking through the infernal circles

I live in my hell

I follow a self-destructing path

Nothing easier in this existence than not caring

And just as i let my lungs match the temporary absence of colour in my heart

something ancient awakes in me, a feeling i have learned to hate and it has learned to torment me for it

Spes non obliviscaris me, dolet me adhuc

Terrified of starting anew, ropeless climbing once more

I am so alone