I have muffled the screams Silenced the pain What is it that I am constructing A creature lonely and disturbed I see it smiling in the dark It can smell its master's demise Its strength increasing I created a monster capable of my own destruction I satiated and enhanced its hunger And now I have to keep myself hidden My dreams have been infiltrated, sleeping isn't safe I have flirted with sadness for too damn long I am afraid to try Genuine happiness My willful fucking ignorance Don't seek out to find me For if I am not completely lost yet, only I can find the way again And if I dont, I am theirs now