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Living corpse, I'm surprised I feel anything

My brain is a dungeon, conditioned for suffering

Overwhelming condemnation is the verdict from everyone

Ever-present imperfection; I wish I wasn't anyone

I lived in fear for the whole of my life

Sick of my reflection, you're begging me for my knife

If I wished you were dead, that means I would forfeit

If you were alive, I'd still have none of it

You have to suffer, you have to pay

You must be punished and bleed for me

I know I'm a freak that contradicts nature

Self-preservation, a self-inflicted feature

Justified, vilified, a sanguine harmony

Agony, reality, what I perceive is real

Strange relief that pain can be a focus

Still a stranger peace that punishment is comfort

But the deepest wound I've sustained through the years

Can't be deep enough to deliver my fears

You have to suffer, you have to pay

You must be punished and bleed for me

Oh God, I'm dying

Please don't let me go

Amazing grace that's deeper than these wounds

When I was digging deeper, Your mercy is deeper too

Considered righteous from the Judge who sits upon the throne

Through faith in Jesus Christ, whose death my sins atone

The Lamb did suffer, the Lamb did pay

The Lamb was punished and bled for me

The Lamb is worthy, the Lamb was slain

The Lamb is risen and reigns forevermore