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If I knew then

what I know now

I wouldn’t change a thing,

I’d still be scared as shit

If I had control I wouldn’t live afraid

Spending my life

under a shadow of fear

Fearing who I really am

Why was I made this way

How do I live

Without the fear of ridicule

I live under a shadow of it

I didn’t want this, I couldn’t do shit

Look me in my eyes you son of a bitch

What do you want me to be

I’ll melt myself down and fit into the mold

Fearing who I really am

Why can’t I move on?

Why should I change the things that aren’t wrong?

How do I live?

In this constant worry

That I’ll fall apart and everything crumbles again

This shadow of fear consumes me

I can’t stand this constant worry

How do I free myself from the past

I’d rather live life

keeping it under wraps

I wasn’t in control

so I hope you’re proud

I didn’t want help

I couldn’t fucking get out

How can I gain control?

How do I save myself

If I live like this I’ll never know peace

Who do I lose?

Who do I lose?