Longing for the desert To forsake all I've known But I can't escape me My sins they live within me Lenten Season shows us the truth about ourselves Crawling toward the eucharist My body craves the path to hell My flesh relentless Depraved and twisted My thoughts they flourish Blossomed abhorrent One, prostration Two, prostration Three, prostration Four, clenching prayer rope An "our Father" A "hail Mary" Repeated at my icon wall My baptism draws near Demons attack viciously Most holy Theotokos save us Lucid daydreams of me hanging Lord this feels so real I rely upon your strength This takes much more than zeal If not for the Lord my God I would never live to see the fruits of my good works or the salvation of my family Won't pretend I know anything except that Christ is Lord The one upon that cross is why I fight this war Jesus conquered death so I wouldn't have to Cruse this urge for suicide God I give my life to you My flesh relentless Depraved and twisted My thoughts they flourish Time to give it to God Our Father in Heaven Hallowed by Thy name Thy Kingdom come Thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors And lead us not into temptation but deliver us from the evil one Holy God Holy Mighty Holy Immortal Have mercy on us Have mercy on us Most Holy Theotokos Save us Most Holy Theotokos Save us Most Holy Theotokos Save us Lord Jesus Christ Son of God have mercy on us sinners Lord Jesus Christ Son of God have mercy on us sinners This is prayer in the name of the Father, Son, Holy Spirit Amen