I reckon it may have brought me some relief on a number of occasions I can’t say I didn’t manage to jump on a number of genuine opportunities I just feel I should sometimes be more confident about what will happen to me I’m often confused about not knowing if things evolve in the right direction It is no longer that I can’t keep things that hurt for myself I realize I’m partly responsible for making them real What really hurts is that I constantly keep one step ahead for myself The illusion of being in charge of my immediate future… …drives me to attempt at exerting total control over my acts and thoughts Am I simply too sensitive not to worry? Or am I the one who make matters hurt? Constantly pointing at what “could” go wrong? Do I tend to overstate the significance of some issues that happen to me? The illusion of being in charge of my immediate future… …drives me to attempt at exerting total control over my acts and thoughts