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Breached walls

Over nothingness

Blast my mind off

Wrecked all my faith

Collapsed foundations,

Spirit, ruined.

Remains the shadow

Of its former self

What’s left ?

My Destiny remains

Delusion

My fate is in my hands

Fools! My life is doomed

I’m oblivious

Sightless

All I have done and suffered through, decayed

ad hoc reasons, fantasies, appear clear to me

All I wish now is a a trepanation

In order to get some rest, but

The eyes of a tyrant

Sometimes look empty

Though my sight is filled

with anxiety

Desperate reaction

Worthless pain

Remains the shadow

Of a former ace

What’s left ?

My Destiny remains

Delusion

My fate is in my hands

Fool! My life is doomed

I’m oblivious

Sightless

The heart is meant for a lover’s voice,

Not the sour guilt of bitter ploys

May I for once expect to live a life

Clearer and sober, stop the benzos rife

Without spending ev'ry single moment

Forseeing my future to be uprooted

In my mind, the final confusion:

A slowly unfolding delusional illusion