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So finally in your despair

you fall from grace broken and bare

now sleep

with my knife

tucked in between your teeth

while i try

to remember what it means to be free

of your lies

your manic pretentious beliefs

make me wish i had died

before you took over me

now lost within your darkest fear

don't give up hope i need you here

i screamed

to the skies

like a child at prayer believes

one wish will suffice

to keep you forever with me

in my own tragedy i lay

you'd call this love or is this hate?

("Jealousy is not only inbred in human nature,

but it is the most basic, all-pervasive emotion

which touches man in all aspects

of every human relationship." — Boris Sokoloff, 1947, Jealousy: A Psychological Study )

i searched for happiness

at the razor's edge

i searched for sanctity

out on a broken ledge

i searched for hope and help

in the hearts of wailers and scoffers

i searched for a reason to live

and all that murder offers