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it's nights like this

when I am reminded

of all my failures

and all my regrets

sometimes I want to forget I exist

sometimes I feel if I take a final step

and fall off the edge

it will all come to an end

all this pain

all this ache

all I've known

is suffering, apathy, blamed

following the trails of blood

unknowing that the blood

is of my own

wandering in circles

trying to find my way

out of the cold

all these years

I've been blamed

and as a result I feel so worthless

afraid to leave my house

afraid to interact with society

my nihilistic ways

took hold of my heart

I wonder if I fall in love

with my depression

whether that would leave me too

all I've known is failure and rejection

I was hoping you'd be the one

who'd understand

now I see I'm only wasting away

in such a hollow shell