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Home is where I'm safest

or at least that's what they say

it's what everyone says

forget the trauma, forget the abuse

sleep for days, starve myself again

repeat the cycle, cut myself some more

maybe draw blood this time

vision fading, body weakening, giving up

it won't ever end

constant waves of relentless flashbacks

panicking until I pass out into another seizure

remembering what used to happen,

during my seizures...

remembering what she used to do

I remain only in silence

no one will ever know

and I'm struggling to understand

whether my silence is protecting me

or if it's really only protecting her...

only a few minutes, that's what she said

only a few minutes and it'll all be over

it was meant to be as simple as that...

was it?