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I wandered the polluted streets

looking through empty alleyways

and spots where we used to hang

to search for you

I felt this sense of weakness

dwell inside my chest

but I kept searching

only to find you with someone else

then it all made sense to me

why you had left

a single note on the drawer

for so long I was confused

but now I see

all I had once known has died

"goodbye"

is all that was written

and on that day

I watched all the birds die

I witnessed the destruction

of myself

I embraced this truth

like a knife to my chest

I dream of swallowing some pills

so I could drift away forever

but I'm too afraid

too weak to even try

a world of pain is all that I deserve

maybe that's what you think

maybe you couldn't care enough

all I know

is something changed

I no longer feel the same

when I am with you

I feel so lost