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If this is living

I much prefer my nightmares

The pain persists

How do you keep smiling

When the rest of us are crying

Does it bring you pleasure

To hear us fear dying

Oh no

I must have lost the plot

Don't know if this will ever stop

No I have lost the plot

Won't someone stop this rot

What have you got to say for yourself

The potheads back home care more for my health

I give up

You have lost my trust

I give up

The abuse is too much

My favourite places, the best of smells

Are nothing but a blur to my current self

My closest friends, my love for life

Are colours too dull to paint over this plight

If I end it all

If I end it all, will I still be allowed into heaven

There is nothing left for me

God, if you truly exist, let Goshi know that I love her

How do you keep smiling

When the rest of us are crying

Does it bring you pleasure

To hear us fear dying

Oh no

I must have lost the plot

Don't know if this will ever stop

No I have lost the plot

Won't someone stop this rot