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Regurgitating pieces of my soul

My sickness of myself always churns

I realised life was limited and thus, began to limit myself

To becoming a machine of self destruct

I lost myself to stay relentless

And yet these tears still fall

But they do not take me away with them.

Emotion no longer moves me

Im dying within a dead pain

Ive lost the reason to wish I could change.

Within the same old sadness where I cannot be helped

For without something missing: there is nothing there.

My demise is my only thought

How hard I fight the temptation to end it all

Without knowing what I'm fighting for.

Only to stay in a pain Ive had so long

Atleast If I die I wont need this anymore.

The only way through this is to become cold

But walking forward only leads nowhere.

It always gets worse.

Ide give anything to go back

But I have nothing left to offer.

I exsist in a time that has gone

Only in helpless things can I pretend to have hope.

Pain is so worthlessly easy to feel

I endure myself for nothing.