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Today I said only pleasant things

Smiled at strangers

And they'd give one back to me

Confessed a love

That was only for myself

Now I feel guilty

Guilty

Guilty

Today my face beamed

And betrayed how I felt

Didn't envy

Didn't wish for something else

Said what I meant

In a less than passive way

Convinced myself

That blind confidence would help

Still I feel guilty

Guilty

Guilty

With my nails unkempt and frail

I carve my name

And claim what no one else will

Silence

Silence

Time is long and lonely

When you realize

Survival means marching

To the sound of a prosthetic heart