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Morning again, it's time to wake up. A brand new day, always the

same. Can't find anything that makes me want to open my eyes. Can't

find a reason that makes me want to enjoy this senseless boring

life. On the way to work, I ask myself why should I do something

that I don't want to, something I don't need just because everybody

does it. It is always the same question, but there is never a decent

answer to it or maybe I never really tried to find the good one.

Never really tried to find the true one. I have always complained

but I never moved my ass. All I ever dreamed for will never happen

if I act just like dead- my body lives but not my soul. Dead- my

anger grows but not my hope. Dead- yes, I've been dead for too long.

I just want my life to be dedication for the things that are

important to me. Actually it's only stress and frustration. I need

to create, I need more than just to obey.

No, it's too late to make a new choice. I'm sure that my fate

depends on this choice. I am sick of compromise, I will create my

own life- yes, I'm sick of compromise. It's hard, hard to change a

life. A neverending conflict suffocates my mind between what is

essential and what is not. I want to live another dream everyday and

not just dream another life in vain.