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Recessed into my mind, my inner place.

Abducted now I see the truth.

There is no trace,

Of my prepubescent youth!

This selfish deed

Ensures that I receive his seed,

Will I come to full term?

Or will another stay unborn?

Rid me of this lurid fate,

What god has failed to consummate,

Depraved! Though once enslaved,

Resistance wanes to well behaved!

Far too accustomed

With this gray and hollow act!

Post coital silence

Leaves him slumped and staring back!

Endorphins flood but do not

Justify the sense and shame,

I have not felt alive since that day I came!

No longer will I hide,

A grotesque monster I’ve become.

Please do not vilify,

The sinless form that I once was!

This selfish deed

Ensures that I receive his seed,

I’m but an aging mold,

Yielding to pleasures of control!

Rid me of this lurid fate,

What god has failed to consummate.

Denied! wet with reside,

I will seek peace in suicide!

With resolve and purpose,

I grant release!

Just a receptacle,

He’s murdered everything I was to be!

Dead to the world,

I leave this cage fit for another!

No earthly ties, a nameless face I’ll be!

Forgotten mother!

Forgotten daughter!

There is no life that lies beyond these eyes,

And so I welcome my demise!

Worthless tears descend from fear,

I’ve done this dance from year to year,

Tonight will be the night...

I end this life!

Far too accustomed

With this gray and hollow act!

Post coital silence

Leaves him slumped and staring back!

Endorphins flood but do not

Justify the sense and shame,

I have not felt alive since that day I came!