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Music: M. Martèl

Lyrics: K. Pasman

It's cold in here, since your arms are not around me

The times I couldn't tell I love you are now written on the blackest page in the book of my life

Sometimes I cried out of pure frustration

Maybe it wasn't too smart to hide my desires

But what else could I do if I didn't want to erase myself from your life?

And the dreams I had, I know they couldn't become reality

But I can always try to make your life as I want it to be

I came into your heart through the back door

And maybe you will kick me out, I'll understand

Forbidden feelings trapped inside a world where I am bleeding tears

My feelings only show at night

But my dreams in you won't appear

But when I open up my eyes

I realize you are not here

Forbidden dreams bare hidden tears

I wish desires weren't so strong

Then maybe I could live my life

My dreams lie to me, they are wrong

Without your love I can't survive

I cannot stand the pain that long

My wish is dead, you won't arrive

But still I keep the hope alive

It's been dead ever since I first realized you don't really love me

Maybe you live your life for someone else

I understand, I just wait for Death to take me

I'd like to see you after I open up my eyes

I want to kiss you when the golden dawns arise

A feather of the Phoenix' wings should let me fly

From the awakening of the feelings kept inside

I see your feature every night

But when I try to get to near

You slowly slip out of my sight

Into a sea of hidden tears

Heartbroken and insane I died

After that night you disappeared

And still there's nothing I can't fear

And of course not, I've looked Death in his eyes

And I've seen love, so pretty it seems, yet so ugly it looks

No one ever wants to get near me, no one...

I'd like to see you after I open up my eyes

I want to kiss you when the golden dawns arise

A feather of the Phoenix' wings should let me fly

From the awakening of the feelings kept inside

But now I open up my eyes

The room is empty, cold and dead

Behind the locked, black door it lies

The end of dreams I always had

But I can never get inside

I'm scared of dreams, they wreck my head

Maybe I'll die tonight instead

And why not? There's nothing else for me to live for

Since you don't seem to live for me

It is no use, thank you for being there for me

Goodbye, I love you...

I'd like to see you after I open up my eyes

I want to kiss you when the golden dawns arise

A feather of the Phoenix' wings should let me fly

From the awakening of the feelings kept inside