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Quite hard to just dive right into life

with a foot still stuck in depression

this demeaning debris from the past

crushing like solid concrete to your limbs

Please just get me now

in some minds, there’s more than it should

unconscious wisdom

Seemingly chaotic yet the most important to me now

what would you expect me to do?

Gaining more insight to the world every hour

regardless the imminence

All that's mine

an entire thoughtscape now fell, slipped, ripped into

a mosaic – Shattering

I collect the pieces, I guess the abyss isn't far from this

Who will catch - catch my fall?

Under this one sun we would just come undone,

eradicated by damage done,

realizing now the lying on myself

deep down I know it is true:

We begin

a disintegration

the urge – to disengage

it grows so irresistibly profound

Out of time

all that I call mine, this bloody body shrine, I was sure,

it just had to die,

had to dissolve

I stand by entwined, now no longer aligned

the ship is sinking now

The only way is inside

devoured by a fever daydream

blacker my eyes cannot turn

in a grotesque deformation plunging inside

slowly the thoughts cooling down!

No

There is a light in despairing

an aesthetic force in the blankest ugliness

I feel this strong compassion

with the inner child

Then sudden realization that this wall was just a farce

now I’m forceless in rebirth trespassing the glass

The emotional deprivation decreasing at last

I realize how I never really had to change myself