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A tragic phone call to notify my lovers death

catastrophic accident how could it have come to this

with tearful eyes i watched them lower your body into the ground

so I’ll take possession of your possessions once your wills read out

what i received disloyalty

my bride to be memories destroyed

you got to die so peaceful undeserving of my undying love

how alone and cold it feels knowing I'm not the only one

in my sickness I admit this cannot live this lie I’m living

should I join you do I want that I think not your  soul is black

I feel you eat at my heart while worms eat at your flesh

you tear my soul apart but cannot draw a breath

In my sickness I admit this life on earth has now been finished

none to live for much to die for lord forgive me I do implore

they can never know why I chose to go

the pain sorrow so pathetic

I can hear her screams calling unto me

in my sleep calling for me

left to mourn alone

well how could they have known

that her love I disowned mourning tarnished

she was all I’d known

now all I know is hate

violent thoughts I can’t erase

I will join you

now it’s too late to turn back

the blood is ever-flowing

I knew I’d die alone

but not with these organs showing

at the gates of the eternity

I hear your voice is calling I knew I’d find you here

I’ll show you the pain I’m holding

this is not my punishment I am yours