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i’d rather destroy myself than being destroyed by you

auto aggression - better than being destroyed by you

i can not cope with things oppressing me

but i can punish the people who love me

banging my head against the wall

take away any chance to live my life the way i want

not my fault not your fault anyway

i don’t want to live i don’t want to die

pain i feel - pain you feel - feel it now

i always used to hide my emotions

because i think no one really wants to know

the things that i can feel inside

inside of me where nobody knows

what is going to be

hurting me feels good to me

and lets my hidden self go

to be free