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Self loathing and sin is my life’s purpose

Five grams or ten into death, I dissolve

So tired of life; I just can’t fucking win

Silence my brain so I might get some sleep

Bring me a bag or another bottle

My paling skin met with tiny needles

Everything was fine until I woke up

Scream till I can’t; where’s the peace that I need?

Benzos are killing me

Anxiety ruins me

Depression is eating me

Why can’t I sleep?

Benzos are killing me

Anxiety ruins me

Depression is eating me

Please get me out of here - can’t I just sleep?

Can’t fucking breathe; is my throat closing up?

Stitching my eyes shut and slamming the door

Into the depths of my mind I’ve been sent

Locked in a cell made out of my own fear

Hate of myself pushing me off the edge

I just can’t live with my own uselessness

Loading a gun with the best of intent

Ending my life; fuck your entitlement