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Decomposing in self-doubt and -pity

eyes constantly bathed in artificial lights

stuck in a place that I don’t want to call home

trembling fingers searching for a touch

of something better than plastic and glass

but I have placed my faith in these useless artifacts and shrines

every night the last to leave the table - always with the losing hand

I feel less a man

Less a human

Less alive

I feel less

Every day I feel a little less

than the day before

my hands always set to destroy

everything I build

For agony and uncertainty

I am a bearer of guilt

trembling like fire

I burn everything to the ground

I burn everything to the ground

but I can’t feel the heat

I'm afraid I'm losing everyone close to me

I'm afraid I'm losing everyone that I love

I'm afraid I'm losing everything I hold dear

I'm afraid I’m beaten down, broken and lost

I'm afraid that love is not enough

to carry on