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Night after night

I turn on the lights to rest

Panhandler of dreams

Aerial in the meaningless sky

Angels dry their wings

At noon in a laundry room

They are ready for flight

To utter darkness in the wilderness

I need a sharp shot

To be sure my carcass drops

And a bleeding Halo

Get high and touch the skies

Built in the new Christ

Pill is our new God

Demons walk into my purgatoried mind

Won’t you listen

At passing cars

Jesus screaming for an angry fix

He's waiting for his chemo

We’re all waiting for our chemo to come

My body hurts

Crying out to get that stuff

I die of thirst

My skin is drying up

My insides burn

I choke

Shit on my knees

Alligators crawling under the island of rabies

And we just feel ashamed that nothing will help

All our friends won't see us well

Hail to the redeeming suicide

Hail to the suicide king

Demons walk into my purgatoried mind

Live inside my eye

And tell me what to see