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I'm losing touch (My mind has died)

I'm lost inside (My rotting mind)

Bleed my veins (Gouge my eyes)

Pull me down (Past all my lies)

I've lied

I've died

A two pronged life (I've tried to hide)

Has been revealed (Is now alive)

Peace of mind (I've tried to keep)

To keep it strong (I must deceive)

I've tried and failed to ignore the pain

What started bad just ends the same

And all the work to stall the hurt

Comes crashing down on me

I'm sorry for the betrayal

For destroying your dwindling trust

But I needed to keep the world happy

To appease my sickening lust

If I could bring a single smile

Then I'll put the tears to rest

Yet you see me as nothing but vile

And my reasoning for love you suppress

I was fed up with who you are

So sick of my ties to your name

But still I promised that I'd be a shoulder

To cry on throughout your days

And it was never enough

never meeting your demands

I was fed up

But still sinking into the sand

I moved on

In halves, in parts, not whole

For at the center of my gaping heart

lies a bleeding, blackened hole

And then you found me

you tricked me again

I fell face first

I fell hard for you again

I tried to keep you happy, but you were one of many

Still you saw nothing, so now I'm here

Tell me I've wronged

I never wanted this

To become the monster I loathed to be

I swore against him on my life

That creature would never be me

But now I've broken what once I held dear

And shunned myself into shame

I've taken hold of the hand of misfortune

He led me blindly through the rain

Why do you plague my mind?

Why does your voice infest my bones?

Now you see that you got your revenge

I am cold, defeated and alone

I thought things could last forever

What more childish thoughts could I perceive?

Now I see that we could never

fall back asleep, together, in our dream.