Jade. Jade. Jade. Face black, another shadow of innocence tainted. Gave back all the lights and glitter. Wrong track again and again it stings. Wish you all could feel like this. 12 is for the reason of regret. 9 is for the pain that I'm caused. Will strife ever cease someday? Fuck this mind that is made to hate. Complete the task of humility. Restrained from who they want me to be. That's what they want me to be. That is not quite good enough for me. Fuck you and your thoughts of me. Fuck you and your thoughts of me. Fuck you, how can I not be me? Fuck you I will never let you take me. I will never be that good, little one. I can never see what is so good about life. I can never change just who I am, just what it is I think I am doing. My hands fell down now, I know I failed. You were not there to pick up the waste of this pathetic tale. Maybe I should just end all this right here. Would you like that, would you like that? Maybe you could cope knowing that you all have succeeded. I am staying here to betray all of you. I am staying here to betray all of you. Never failing me again. Never failing me again. Never fail! Cut a little, it bleeds slowly. Cut a little, it bleeds slowly. Cut a little, it bleeds slowly. It bleeds can you see it ooze? Cut a little, it bleeds slowly. Cut a little, it bleeds slowly. Cut a little, it bleeds slowly. It bleeds slowly can you see it ooze? I'm going to save me. I'm going to save me. I'm going to save me. I'm going to save me. My eyes turn the color jade. My eyes turn the color jade. My eyes turn the color jade. My eyes turn the color jade. I look at everyone around me. I am so sick of this place. Anyone and anything makes me sick. I just want to end it all. I return to my room, walls white with black shades. Oh how would red look? The reasons are not for your ears. The feelings are not for your heart. I circle in tears. Wishing, hoping, dreaming. Can I find a way out besides this? I need it, I want to be where you are. I miss you!