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A degenerate man with a selfish heart.

How could I possibly be used for God?

How could he make use of a man-child, such as myself?

Do I not remember how the disciples were all sinners?

Did they not squawk about their roles between one another?

Did not their mothers try to bribe Jesus to exalt them?

Why then, do I belittle myself and my use for the King of Kings?

God does not make man perfect.

But he does equip the willing to do his work.

Oh, Heavenly Father!

What a joy it is to serve thee!

Everything from my job, to my role in my church, to making grind music.

I know I am being used!

Thank you for answering my prayers.

Thank you for comforting me when I didn't see my self worth.

I will shout your name for all to hear for the rest of my life.