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It’s bouncing in my head,

it’s time to wake, time to wake up

leaving my dreams behind

Today I’ll take a shower

the coffee scent lifts me up

my workplace awaits me

My suit (I’m used to wear it, I’m used to stay)

is my disguise (the path I took , the sham I live)

Commuting on the bus

day to day, same old faces

I promised myself to smile once again

A few more sketches done

time for lunch and empty words

Demands I can’t refuse

Hours piling up

And when I’m done, the sun is gone

This dead end life wears me out

My disguise (away from colours, away from life)

is all I am (afraid to differ, just going straight)

What’s my fuel? What’s my goal? What’s my value?

God! I don’t know, I’m so tired now!

Last bus gone

I must walk,

trying not

to think back

I chose this way

too late to change

There were no choices

Take it and go ahead!

I still hear his cries, memories repressed

buried years ago, I was grasping the spade

All those feelings fade

within my inner child, oppressed

I was breaking hard myself!

A man can drown

in his own thoughts

Life is a leaden grey coloured stone

I should go back home

I’m losing my mind

I’m starting to feel cold

I’d rather be dead!