No ! I refuse to follow you in this hallucination No ! I refuse to lose reason I lost my sons I committed atrocities In the name of what ? I lost my faith ! I lost my way ! It is you that I did lose ! And I absolved all the others ! Oh you my lawyer, tell them it was not I ! Tell them I was only pain ! Tell them I could not master my fear ! Constantly repeat them ! Oh you the specialist, tell me it was not I ! Help me getting rid of this pain ! Help me not to give in to this fear ! Get me out of this torpor ! I can only have lost reason There can be no other explanations Under the influence of this decoction Or else, how could have I commit such abuses ? A school wholly decimated A son beheaded another dismembered Heads from pulled to replaced And my soul torn apart On the altar of mediocrity ! Oh you my lawyer, tell them it was not I ! Tell them I was only pain ! Tell them I could not master my fear ! Constantly repeat them ! Oh you the specialist, tell me it was not I ! Help me getting rid of this pain ! Help me not to give in to this fear ! Get me out of this torpor ! What can I tell my wife ? I took her the fruit of her loins How can I explain her ? That I am an executioner father What can I tell my other half ? Except that she remains my love ! Who can explain to her That there was nothing left of me, When I was back there ?