Seasons change as well as the stages of sickness The hope I once had Now melts like Spring plotting against the Winter snowman The tumors spread too quickly And I once sported a smile With twinkling eyes like a child in the toy store Now degraded into a blank stare I don't think watering the wilted petals will do much Just as the lullaby refuses to soothe the insomniac There's nothing you can do for me So please just leave me be At this point I've forgotten how to feel Like the Autumn leaves that forgot how to retain green.