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Cyclical impulse, the weight of pure defeat

These fraying mantras of self loathing crushing me

Blurring visions of bolts through straining palms

Hypnotic silent chants of suicidal psalms

Cursed repetition

And I can’t fucking breathe

Swept beneath the swirling filth of spiral thought

Bent beneath the weight of the misery I’ve wrought

Noose and knife delirium echoes in the trees

Cancered gift of rotting blossoms brings me to my knees

Cyclical impulse, the weight of pure defeat

These fraying mantras of self loathing crushing me

Blurring visions of bolts through straining palms

Hypnotic silent chants of suicidal psalms

Innate desire for self deconstruction

Dark and dormant, or pulsating blind

I don't know how else I can say this

I hate myself and want to die

I just hate myself and I want to die